Chocolate Muffin?

So its like 10 in the morning n im up alone. I'm having breakfast...a.k.a. a chocolate muffin that my brother bought for me x3..i don't think "insomniac" is suitable for me anymore...:-/ i use to lie awake all night in bed..frustrated, crying,....n i couldn't fall asleep till very late. i would find myself talking to myself. telling myself to go to sleep..the frustrations are still there..but i just take some NyQuil now. lmfaooo.. i might become addicted to that stuff. it just knocks me out xD. i lie in bed n b4 i know it I'm out..n I'm sort of glad. i cant stand thinking about all the thing in my life anymore. me complaining...just makes me ungrateful.. even though there's a lot in life i don't have. but one day i will..ill have everything i ever dreamed of. i spend so much time putting myself down wen i should really be pushing myself up..
i make sure i don't push anyone close to my heart down. my mother pointed it out. i don't think shes quite fond of me telling people what i should be telling myself..but thats just the kind of person i am. stupid, lazy, but full of love.
Ive only actually taken NyQuil 3x's to fall asleep n get rid of my cold so far. n it has come to much use. ^_^ well i better start getting ready for work..-_-...i hope the kids are low on energy today..D-:...p.s. (if you're reading this) I LOVE YOU ANIKA!!